151107 - UK

Four weeks old today! I think her 1st month will be celebrated on Sunday. I have seen other babies having their photo taken by the staff and they have it on a special birthday paper. Okay down to business; Mary Ann had of course put on weight again today. She is now 1545g. She was only suppose to put on 75g but is now 135g heavier. The boy next to her had only added small 75g to his weight. I’m ‘so happy that we have Mary Ann instead - for so many reasons.
Again today there was a new nurse on Mary Ann. I showed her the letter I have written for Mary Ann about all our hopes for her, how much we had planned this for her sake and the chock that nothing has gone as planned, our thoughts about it all, her family in UK for whom she’s also very precious, the frustration we had in the beginning, the pressure we felt from the hospital and so on. The nurse was very touched and even said Mary Ann was awfully lucky to have us as parents. Oh my, I do hope so. The letter is also meant for the staff to read. I want them to know exactly this amount about us. No more no less. Especially because it was important for me to show them, that we did plan a lot about this baby. The plan was made so I could cope with the tasks around her. Now they could only see all the “flaws”. There were suddenly so many things I couldn’t do at the hospital. Because nothing in there is accessible for me as at home. I didn’t put all these words on this topic in the letter. Just that she was long planned for. I think they can guess the rest. Or else it doesn’t really matter. It was enough to make me fell better about the troublesome situation I suddenly found me self in, in spite all my efforts. And that was the intention.
I went to the doctor again this morning. My blood pressure is getting better. I withdraw slowly from the medicine. In the afternoon Neil and I had some shopping to do. In the meanwhile Cecilie exercised the dog. When we came home I took Cecilie and Tiree on a bike trip round Vodskov. Cecilie enjoyed that, showing me all new roads. Cecilie has made another (short this time) letter for Mary Ann; “looking forward for having you here with us so I can hold you as long as I want to. I already love you so much. I have looked forward for being your big sister”. Her first letter was read laud when I sat with Mary Ann. After I read it I hang it up over her crib. You can see that on the picture from today.We did her homework and then she had to go to football. We also had a workman to look at our garage door. While Cecilie was at football Neil and I had a peaceful moment to watch a DVD. I felt a sleep though. Cecilie came home, we had Neil’s lovely dinner, she had a shower, I write this and then washing and making ready for tomorrow and next to bed. The days fly away. That is truly great. We would not feel the weeks at the hospital so long then.