091207 - UK

I don’t really feel like writing today. Today one nurse felt it was better is just one of us feed Mary Ann for some days in order to find a good routine with the feeding bottle. That would have to be Neil then since he has the maternity leave and not I. First I agreed about it. But now I don’t because that would mean that nothing is left for me to do with her but look at her when she sleeps. I just can’t give that up as well. Now I feel as a selfish mum. Before now I have felt that I made decisions after what was best for Mary Ann and not for me. But I just can’t do that now. Therefore Neil and I decided on our way home that we both feed her. Then we find a favourite feeding tactic each and try them both onto we find the perfect one we both have to stick to.
We still try out different nipples for our bottle. We have started to give Mary Ann food every 3, 5 hours instead for every 3 hours. We hope that will make her more eager to take the bottle. But she still seems as tired as before.