201207 - UK

Today is the day. We are going home with Mary Ann. I had her from 3am and packed all our stuff after feeding her. Neil slept so it had to be a very quiet packing. I’m glad Neil sleep so heavily since I always drop the heavy things on my “I can do it all by myself mission”.
The poor Mary Ann was dressed very early. I wanted everything to be ready so we could go home. I was worried about her weight though. We weighed her again since it’s Thursday. She was only 2365g onto she wet the changing mat then she was down to only 2360g! Please Mary Ann, don’t pee when we have to weigh you. That means she has only put on 20g since Monday. That’s not enough. They let us bring her home anyway. As I also said we are not going to do anything differently at home. I think she didn’t put enough weight on because she couldn’t eat well due to her stomach ache. Hopefully that will be better in the next couple of days. Nevertheless it seems as she might have the problem still.
She was feed at 10am and at 11am we were having a meeting with the local authority. Finally we got some cleaning help. Neil needs to be relieved from some work here at home. Normally they don’t give that help when you have an able partner. But Neil has allergy so he can’t dust and things and he is always helping me, so they gave in. I hated that begging meeting but for Neil’s sake I swallowed my pride.
In the afternoon I went to see my colleagues. It was so great to see them all. But also a little odd realising that the world is spinning as always although my everyday has turned upside-down. We were having a Christmas launch together or rather they were and I cancelled my lunch because of the meeting we unexpectedly had to have at the hospital. Yet, it ended up with my bringing my own lunch since I was running around at the hospital for meeting with a nurse, a social adviser and an occupational therapist just because I wanted to borrow a crib with me home as different staff members promised me in my beginning pregnancy. Suddenly they had all forgotten about that deal. They all thought that was impossible all of a sudden. So now I have an old-fashioned crib which is without any functions. That again leaves it all to Neil with lifting Mary Ann. My guess is that I can lift her up in that kind of crib for 1-2 more months. Then what? Then I hope the carpenter is finished with the special made playpen I have booked him for in the beginning of my pregnancy. Patience is a virtue.
Going home with Mary Ann was of curse very special. I was so happy that I wanted to cry (yes guys it’s a girl thing). It was a little like that day we became parents. It was “great big”.
I tried to introduce Mary Ann slowly to few rooms. It ended up with her and I withdrawing from Neil and the very eager dog. We sat in the bedroom. I felt as relaxed with her as never before sitting there in my own comfy bed and not expecting anything from her what so ever. Not even when she cried for food. I thought she couldn’t concentrate on eating. I guess it was good not to expect anything because she had every drop of milk I gave her without spoil, complaints and breaks. Perfect start here on our own tot.