191207 - UK

Okay, I'm defiantly that baby’s mum. Finally I really feel that. I have loved her like a mum but didn’t feel I was the one closest to her – before now that is.
The started like every day here at the hospital has started. She was special beautiful this morning. Sweet and innocent looking at me with big dark eyes very a wake. She even smiled twice! That was my first time to see that. But through out the day her mood changed. She got angrier, it seemed. Special around feeding time she stood out like a bow away from me. Why was that? I know that you get angry when in pain. So maybe she had some pain somewhere? I had noticed that she hasn't made any poo since Monday. I felt more and more reassured that must be the reason even though the staff didn’t think so. In the evening I insisted that they did something about it. They made a lavement and then the problem was solved. Yes!, I know her best. In that moment I realized that I have the mother instinct therefore I must admit I can call my self her mum.